The Desire of Idendity
Après avoir publié ce texte en français il y a quelques jours, j’ai réalisé qu’il s’adressait en réalité et à prime à bord aux Canadiens anglais. Comme ils ne sont qu’environ 10 % à être bilingues au pays, il me semblait logique de leur offrir une traduction… Merci Julie la traductrice.
I found this video while surfing… on my blog !
I am not Canadian
I must have watched that video (from Toronto radio station Edge 102.1) a hundred times. I never get tired of it.
I lived in Calgary for over a year. I made friends there. Each and every one of these Canadian friends knew (because I am not one to be silent) that I was a separatist. Each and every one of them accepted it respectfully and refrained from talking about it at inappropriate times. They were real gentlemen, these Canadians.
However, when the timing was good, we discussed the Yvettes, the Night of the Long Knives, the absence of Québec in the Constitution since 1982, the Meech Lake Accord, and so on.
At first they were surprised. They never knew. Then they sympathized. But ultimately they didn’t understand. They perceived Québec’s desire to leave Canada as something of a personal affront: “Why? We like you!” they would say.
I could but understand them. A break up is never pleasant, be it of individual or collective nature. As much as I tried to explain it, using all sorts of political – economic – social –cultural – linguistic – historical arguments, there was nothing to be done: my Canadian friends could very well understand and even adhere to ambitions of independence for the Scots, the Tibetans, the Palestinians, and so on. But they could neither accept nor understand such a desire coming from the Québécois.
Yet there is nothing more legitimate than this desire. Desire isn’t bad or good in itself – it simply exists. That’s all. Desire is an impulse, an aspiration from mankind towards something. It might be more or less logical, as it is a question of feeling.
I’ve lived in Montréal for two years now. I’ve made anglophone friends here. Some of them are bilingual, others more or less so. Because I still can’t (and don’t want to!) shut up, the same debate over Canada’s two solitudes comes back again and again. And, tirelessly, it gives way to the same lack of resolution.
Nonetheless, I believe I’ve understood something recently.
Eureka!
While living in Alberta, I would frequently amuse myself by asking Canadians: “What is the difference between you and the Americans?”
People found it hard to answer clearly. They mentioned hockey, the percentage of alcohol in the beer, politeness, religion, and so on.
(Some among them would say: bilinguism. Then I would ask them to repeat that in French…)
In short, nobody could clearly tell me how Canadians and Americans differed from each other.
However, thanks to all these vox pop, and one thing leading to another, I managed to uncover what I think is the truth. If Canadians differentiate themselves so strongly from Americans, it’s because the last thing they want is to become Americans. They are proud to be Canadians, i.e. not Americans. Their identity, so it seems, is largely constructed upon one thing: “We are not Americans”. Not because they dislike, snub or hate them. No. Simply because they don’t feel American.
Don’t come looking for political – economic – social –cultural – linguistic – historical reasons here. No. Here, it is purely a matter of desire. Irrational.
(This sounds awfully familiar.)
“I am not Canadian” parodies the stereotyped Québécois who doesn’t want to be seen as Canadian.
“I am Canadian” (the video) parodies the stereotyped Canadian who doesn’t want to be seen as American.
Each defines himself by the differences between himself and the “other”, the other being the majority.
To each his own desire, his own fear, his own drive. But in the end, we’re all in the same boat.
There is always another, bigger one trying to swallow us or to entail us in his trail. Nothing could be more natural than to resist.
Nature likes diversity.










